My friend Michael and I are walking home
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️arguing about the movie.
He says that he believes a person can love someone
and still be able to murder that person.I say, No, that’s not love. That’s attachment.
Michael says, No, that’s love. You can love
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️someone, then come to a day
when you’re forced to think “it’s him or me”
think “me” and kill him.I say, Then it’s not love anymore.
Michael says, It was love up to then though.I say, Maybe we mean different things by the same word.
Michael says, Humans are complicated: love can exist even in the
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️murderous heart.I say that what he might mean by love is desire.
Love is not a feeling, I say. And Michael says, Then what is it?We’re walking along West 16th Street—a clear
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️unclouded night—and I hear my voice
repeating what I used to say to my husband: Love is action, I used to say
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️to him.Simone Weil says that when you really love you are able to look at
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️someone you want to eat and not eat them.️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️Janis Joplin says, take another little piece of
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️my heart now baby.Meister Eckhardt says that as long as we love images we are doomed to
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️live in purgatory.Michael and I stand on the corner of 6th Avenue saying goodnight.
I can’t drink enough of the tangerine spritzer I’ve just bought—again and again I bring the cold can to my mouth and suck the stuff from
the hole the flip top made.What are you doing tomorrow? Michael says.
But what I think he’s saying is “You are too strict. You are
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️a nun.”Then I think, Do I love Michael enough to allow him to think these things
️️️️️️️️️ ️️ ️️of me even if he’s not thinking them?Above Manhattan, the moon wanes, and the sky turns clearer and colder.
Although the days, after the solstice, have started to lengthen,we both know the winter has only begun.
After the Movie by Marie Howe
₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ ️️ ️️nicole or noah, it/that/they, 18 years old, black, nonbinary arospec lesbian, autisic adhd bpd nd mi
i'm currently into... red velvet, nmixx, pinkpantheress, kiiikiii, underscores, mauleslots, UTDR, the search for the levianthan, not quite human, and surface tension so you'll see them the most frequently on my account :-) you can go to #int for the full list..
the song that plays from this carrd's music player is kitty by niko rubio, you can follow my spotify here ^.^
italics + underlined = main
this list is in no particular order
this is a scrollbox!!!!
hyperfix: surface tension, tsftl, nqh
music: red velvet (yeri bias), njz (haerin bias), nmixx (lily bias), loona (yves bias), yves, pinkpantheress, magdalena bay, sabrina carpenter, my chemical romance, charli xcx, xlov (rui bias), fka twigs, chappell roan, underscores, gorillaz, kiiikiii (haum bias), aespa (ningning bias), natanya, janet jackson, f5ve, femm
object shows: bfdi, love of the s*n, NUMBERS, it's time for the, showvember, ONE, battle for pincode, BURNER, animatic battle, discord emoji all stars, object battle city, lunchbox kids, race for the keys, the nightly manor
smps and mcyt series: decayed and decrepit (flux main), strength smp, unstable universe (spoke main), ish's state/state smp, parkour civilization, qsmp2 (ash main), unserious smp, not quite human (sidefall main), something is knocking at your door, surface tension (sidefall & joseph main), soulsmp (flux main)
→ mcyts i keep up with
musicals: beetlejuice, the great comet of 1812, ride the cyclone, starkid's hatchetfield trilogy, spies are forever, 25th annual putnam county spelling bee, cabaret
unfictions: a regect (zbb3), searching for a world that doesn't exist (wifies), footage of an afterlife (squiddo), the search for the leviathan (wifies), this world is destroying itself (flowkool), the circle-cross game (squiddo), finding the end of the skin caves (zachobuilds), don't look at the moon (legendfinder)
characters: shadow the hedgehog (sonic), kris dreemurr (deltarune), clover (undertale yellow), chara dreemurr (undertale), jane doe (ride the cyclone), bouquet (animatic battle), two (bfdi), gara (battle for pincode), record (burner), pipe bomb (mauleslots), michael (mauleslots), clock (itft), vase (itft), liam plecak (one), popcorn (showvember), ze (a regect), micha (a regect), dorothy (the wizard of oz), spoke (uu), ashswag (qsmp2), sidefall (not quite human), sidefall (surface tension), joseph joost (surface tension)
dynamics: kralsei (deltarune), the fun gang (deltarune), cocoapowder (utr&y), spacedolls (ride the cyclone), the choir (ride the cyclone), gelphie (wicked), gattwo (bfdi), sonadow (sonic), lautski (hatchetfield), ze & regect & moe (a regect), regect & micha (a regect), lightbrush (inanimate insanity), slimeknight (sfawtde), kris & the player (deltarune), polymikes (deltarune), kris & tenna (deltarune), mavbo (parkciv), the conspiracy (state), thomspr (cl/state/whatever), hostel group (d&d), zombros (d&d), devious duo (uu), observer trio (uu), orbital duo (uu), uniglitch (qsmp), sibling trio (qsmp), humfies (tsftl), the showstoppers (nqh)
[names in purple = romantic!!]
misc: angels, sea life, netlore, beetlejuice (all media), the wizard of oz (all media), i have no mouth and i must scream, undertale, deltarune, undertale yellow, ts! underswap
i mainly keep up with fluixon, boomie, lomedy, doctor4t, squiddo, wato, wifies, loonac, joost joe, and flowkool
i also watch schpood, ashswag, bitzel, cookiebunsquat, kenadian, and zachobuilds
i also casually watch a bunch of people, so i'll interact with stuff about them as well. i'm also more of a youtube viewer than a stream viewer ^_^;;
i'm superrr rt heavy. multifandom. i kinda suck at convos. i have low empathy. i go priv sometimes due to paranoia #sorry. serial tweet deleter. i can go inactive at times.
basic dni (bigoted, zionist, etc). proship. stan/support/promote fifi 2.0. current kiof fan. bbtwt.
i also freely block.